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yuck

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:28:33 GMT

I havn't used xanga in over a year I think.

Well, it's probably a good thing.
I looked back at all my old entries, and holy crap, I was the most annoying and revolting person ever.
I'm sorry, xanga friends, but I am no longer the person I was.

my apologies.

first you fade into the background

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 22:15:03 GMT

It's been an incredibly long time since I updated my xanga.
almost a year.

sorry, justin :/

lyrics are all I can think of to post...my emotions are incredibly mixed up right now...

Raised by Wolves- Voxtrot

"I was going hungry and lazy here
When you stopped me in my tracks
I was going crazy; I was desolate and ready to kill
But maybe I believe in another place
If you go, you won't look back
And anywhere you go you know
The ugliness will follow you still

And you break
This into waste
We are desperate, lonely and underpaid
I’m a bitter man, I know
But listen, honey, you're no fun

I will never live like you
But you will probably die like me
Oh lovelessly, an ending
Full of god, and god makes plenty.
You will go on searching
For someone to keep you killing
If you love me, won't you leave me?
'cause I want to settle down

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away

I don't know if you've got another place
Where you bury all these things
I don't know if you can see the shadow
That you cast on the ground
But maybe I can see through the lonely face
Loose your feet and loose your waist
Anywhere you are, you know the freedom there
Is dragging you down

And you break me into lines
We can shake our bodies
And wreck our minds
I’m a bitter man, I know,
But listen, honey, you're no fun

I will never love like you
But you will probably hate like me
Oh lovelessly, and empty
Full of god, and god makes plenty.
You will go on searching
For someone to keep you killing
If you love me, won't you leave me?
'cause I want to settle down…

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away.

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away.

And oh, don't you wanna love?
And don't you wanna feel?
I remember, you were reckless, you were hungry
You were real, you were so uptight
Listen, I don't mind
I feel like I’m watching a car crash.

And oh, this is how it ends
You will watch your friends
Take a moment, take a nothing
Then they'll put it in again.
This is how we are
This is how we are
We are young and stupid
And raised by wolves

I will never live like you do
I will never love like you do

I will never live like you do
I, I will never love like you do

I will never live like you do
I will never love like you do

I will never live like you
I will never love like you

I will never live like you do
No, I will never love like you

I will never live like you
Say I, I will never love like you do. "

new perspective??

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 04:07:46 GMT

making a list of things I love.
because I think I need a new perspective of my life..
and because I wanted to :]

i love

God.
friends.
music.
lyrics.
dance.
sunflowers.
photography
smiling.
the color blue.
giraffes.
acoustic guitar.
silly songs.
raps by L to the A the the ura.
reading.
sprinting.
my cellular device[teheh].
the internet [ it should die...but I love it.]
the weather.
my family.
football games.
old movies.
Charleston, SC.
traveling.
trees.
wheat thins[my weakness. ahah].
peace/love/happiness. I love all three.
power rangers/teenage mutant ninja turtles.
cereal.
smilies :]
erasers.
crayola markers.
1955 Chevy Bel Aires[sp?].
Monopoly.
mechanical pencils.
gravity.
dreaming.
stars[ the ones in the solar system].
superheroes.
air conditioning/heating.
electricity.
getting advice.
feeling pretty.
blue jeans.
water.
being able to see and hear.
OHS.
hugs.
good days.
being nice.
my lack of common sense. ahah.
crab crackers. [ahaha yess that was for LAURA.].
inside jokes.
me.
you.

life.

now that Ive done that, Im going to bed.
i love you.
goodnight children.
[ps. what do you love?]

Friday, August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 22:16:28 GMT

new music.

well a few new-er songs.

and I added the craziest song ever.

Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake.
I learned like the most awesome dance to it on Tuesday. It was great.

ahahah randomness rocks my soul.

anyways, Oakland is the shizzz.

loooooove it.

got to go
have fun being youuu.[ teehee]

love from yours truly.

NEO-SPORN

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 03:12:54 GMT

so I hear xanga is making a comeback.
im excited.
myspace is screwing up too much.

I havnt updated in for freaking ever...and im not proud :[

I got a new layout. I love the saying. it is just too cute!!!!

well nothing much has happened..school starts really soon. that sucks.I really really really do NOT want to go to school.

I have sooo many new songs to add to my playlist..but ill have to do it when im at my mom's house. im at my dads until Tuesday. blegh

I miss Charleston :[
its amazing.
im living there or near there when I grow up.

F-B FOLLY BEACH!!! ahahah laura..good times good times.

I dont know...I have a lack of wanting to write lately.i dont know why, but I wish I did. I miss writing unnaturally long updates.

********************************************************

****NEWSFLASH***

im in a mafia.
NEO-SPORN is the name.
VOTE OR DIE.[ahaha]
im the hit girl / goddaughter. so watch your back.

teehee

love from yours truly :]

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:50:15 GMT

I havn't updated xanga in a while, so I thought that I might.

I've been hanging out with Laura a whole lot, which is really awesome.

and on Saturday I hung otu with Laura, Jamie, and Cody. and that was hillarious.

" OH MY GOSH WE'RE GONNA GET RAPED BY THAT MIDDLE AGED LADY."

anyways...

other than that I've been really bored and lazy.

nothing else to write about..so..yea

short entry.

love you much

alexanna

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 02:00:22 GMT

im in love with a song or three by the same band.
is that even legal???

none of which are on my playlist :[

World Spins Madly On, Jolene, and Gotta Have You are the songs.
The Weepies is the band.
and I, my friend, am addicted to lyrics as I've recently discovered.

anyways, about the Charleston trip.

IT WAS AMAZING.
I had such an awesome time!!
so many inside jokes its INSANE.
im gonna be mean and confuse you by posting all of our inside jokes( or some of them atleast)

L:that guy is
L&A" GAY
L:WOW thats scarry

L:i like this song
A: yea me to but it reminds me of..
L&A: Sims music.. OMG STOP THAT!

Its Teenage Wednesday!

L: He totaly just pulled down my pants
A: WHHAATTT?? groosss

"AH A NOTHER WAVE! DIVE WOMAN DIVE!"

Oh wow... i wanna Surf... YEA!'

L:"Alexanna.. i cant cook bacon!"

O: "Im chubby, but i can FIT THRU HERE!"

what if her shoe is lost in the Ocean! AGHH

L:"LETS PLAY KABBOOM"
A:"NO"
L:"why not??"
A:"Cuz its STUPID"
L:"PLAY THE GAME & SHUT UP!"

A:"Laura get off me."
L:"WHY!?/"
A:"because it isnt scary."
L:"YES IT IS!!!"

E:"so where are you From?"
L:"TN"
E: "SH**, DAYUM, gosh"
L:"gives a weird look.. yeaa that.. "

L:"whats ur name"
E: "oh my name.... um my names Elliot.. SH** DAYUM"
L: "oh... oh ok"

E: "you see my brothers jumped off that pier to come see me and the Po Po is chasing them!"
L&A: "oh really.. wow.. um dang"
E: "Crazy, i know"
A: "almost unbelievebale..."

A:"um no i dont have a pen, do you laura"
L: "oh shucks.. um no no i dont.. uhh sorry?"

daaaaaaang, that Loose Lucy's had some really freaking hot....tshirts...that were upstairs..

no no no Its Lucy Lews!

L: "ALEXANNA.. im tired of seafoood! i want chicken!"
A: "ah yea i guess so.. its like u havent had chicken in a week.. im proud"

L:"Hey were not eating seafood are we?"
A:"Nah why?"
L:"JW.... that chicken tates like fish"

i wonder what a muscle taste like

S:"I WANT THAT MERMAID HAIR BRUSH!"

O:"ouch, you're fire hot"

L:"wow.. this resturant looks just like the movie Forest Gump.."
A:"well it is Bubba Gumps.."

A:i wanna pet poogan come with me
L: NO WAY! im not doing that!

KERR DRUG

L:" wow.. that was like a rollercoaster.. i put my hands up and everything"

E:"can i call u alex?".
A:"no. umm no you cant"

TAKE A PICTURE NOW.

[ we were fighting about nothing..] LETS TAKE A 5 MIN BREAK OK ! 5 MINS!

hey lets set the Alarm for 4:30 am.. then the next people will be pisssed!!

"FINE.... IM WALKING TO SONIC... YEAA thats right! what now!"

"THIS IS NOT AN OCEAN SWIM SUIT!!!!"

"helllllp!! the ocean is sucking me in!"

"WE DROWNED LIKE 15 TIMES OUT THERE!!"

"its like my nose is one huge FRECKLE!"

"Alexanna is like my mommy"

"GO GO GO GO GO GO GO! ahah"

a:" ill race you.."
L:"no i dont wanna.."
A:"ill race you.."
L:I DONT WANNA RACE"
A:"CMON ILL RACE YOU!"
L:"FINE!!"

"this is my good luck charm visor!!"adjusts it
"NOW ITS MY GOOD LUCK CHARM VISOR"
changes hats
"THIS IS MY GOOD LUCK CHARM HAT."

L:"CHUCKY IS UNDERNEATH YOUR BED AND IS GONNA EAT YOUR LEG OFF."
A:"OMG LAURA"
jumps up and turns the light on
A:"DONT DO THAAAT!!"

crab crackers, anyone?? lol

"THEY HAVE CRAB WONTONS?!?!?"
"LETS GET ABOUT 7 ORDERS!!"
ahah

A:"Is that guy wearing pants??!"
L:" yea..but they are girls jazz pants..and he has a skirt on too.."
A:" oh I see. ahaha"

"umm so..whats your number?"
"oh sorry, I dont have a pen."
*turns and walks off*

dang I ripped my sweat pants(poor laura)

"hey alexanna look at.....AHHHHHH"

*fire works go off*"oh yea, that was a good one"

L:"No that cant be the ship, its too small."
fewmin. later and the ship if the size of a small skyscraper.
L:"ohkay nevermind, it is the ship.."

tour man:" my wife's necklace got moved by a spirit...."
A:" help HELP HELP laura, take my necklace off NOW!"

tourman:"make sure to take pictures they tend to pick up lots of spirits.."
A:" HERE TAKE THE CAMERA I DONT WANT TO CAPTURE SPIRITS."

"awwe a baby POOGAN!!"

A: "im going downstairs my knees, umm, their feeling weak"

ahah

octpuses have 8 legs!!

L:"that's"
A:that's"
L AND A: "morbid"

hey...
hey..
HEY!
HEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYYYYYY!!
LAURA
LAURA LAURA LAURA LAURA LAURA LAURA
LAAAUUURAAAA!!!

thats enough..probably too much

ahah

much love

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 03:10:09 GMT

im leaving for Charleston tomorrow.

leave me lots of comments

while im there, if you have Verizon you can call me anytime

if you dont have Verizon..anytime after 9 is good. because then it's free.

ANYWAYS. Next week is gonna be the greatest. I havnt been on a vacation with Laura since the 3rd grade!! ahhhhh its gonna be AMAZING.

we're staying in a condo on Folly Beach, so, if I really wanted to I can probably sneak out and go to the beach at like...2 am. ahahah SWEEEET.

this week has been pretty good..

LAURA HAS DONE CRAZY AMAZING AT HER COMPETITION. SHES MADE LIKE ALMOST 500 BUCKS OUT OF PRIZE MONEY SO FAR!! goooo laura! ahah

i have a myspace now.

http://www.myspace.com/fact_over_fiction

go there (if you have one) or be square.

hopefully ill be tan when I come back..if im not..ill be highly dissapointed. ahah

i put a new profile pic up..i hope its ok. its one of the ones from the post below.

i must be going now.

i looooooove youuuuu oh so very much.

pictures, yo.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 05:33:54 GMT

picture time with laaaaaaaauura.

oh yea, my new hair cu t= really cool. it's not that different, but I think its a nice change.

ahaah

grrrrrr. we're monsters..not really..but grrrr.

photogrpaher = laura liz.

so sweet. lol

im liking this picture..

laura looks peppy and I look emo.

electirc in the aiiir!!

gossip is a queer.

OOOOOHHHH snap.

chick-a-POW.

use your thinking cap.

pimp and playa.

im playa, by the way. ahahahahah

that's all for now, my peeps.

I love you muuuch :]

p.s.- hmm should I use the 1st, 3rd, 5th, or 9th picture as my profile pic??

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 07:07:48 GMT

did alot of thinking...

and now I more depressed than I was when I started thinking... so typical of me.

mostly thought about myself, and my relationships with the people around me.

ahah yea, that didn't go as well as I planned it in my mind....

hmm I feel as though I am just inbetween here and there, you know, stuck in the middle. And I am stuck in the middle, I have two schools: Oakland and Smyrna. I have 2 totally different groups of friends..and each group has their amazing qualities..but they are soo different.

friends are amazing..I love them...but im losing them. :[

when i'm with one group of friends at one school..the other group is busy having a blast without me...and even though I know they aren't even doing it on purpose, I know im missing out on alot. and I love my friends so much..and I would give anything to be there with them.

so basically, its impossible for me to get close to anyone except my dear beloved Laura..

im paranoid, and a very jealous friend at points...and I can tell more everyday.

hmm and another thing i've noticed; certain people act alot different around me than they do around other people. Im not sure if that's a good or a bad thing either..but..its no fun because sometimes i think our friendship is fake...

hmmmm I dunno..maybe it'll be better when I can drive and have a car...that would be nice...

on a lighter note..my birthday is in 3 days. :] happy -happy -joy-joy.

im done with this for today...egh.

I hate emo posts..they are so....just.....not me at all.

I think I need to go listen to some Relient K / they make me happy.

hmmm, I sure do love you alot :]

alexanna