yuck

I havn't used xanga in over a year I think.

Well, it's probably a good thing.
I looked back at all my old entries, and holy crap, I was the most annoying and revolting person ever.
I'm sorry, xanga friends, but I am no longer the person I was.

my apologies.

first you fade into the background

It's been an incredibly long time since I updated my xanga.
almost a year.

sorry, justin :/

lyrics are all I can think of to post...my emotions are incredibly mixed up right now...

Raised by Wolves- Voxtrot

"I was going hungry and lazy here
When you stopped me in my tracks
I was going crazy; I was desolate and ready to kill
But maybe I believe in another place
If you go, you won't look back
And anywhere you go you know
The ugliness will follow you still

And you break
This into waste
We are desperate, lonely and underpaid
I’m a bitter man, I know
But listen, honey, you're no fun

I will never live like you
But you will probably die like me
Oh lovelessly, an ending
Full of god, and god makes plenty.
You will go on searching
For someone to keep you killing
If you love me, won't you leave me?
'cause I want to settle down


First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away


I don't know if you've got another place
Where you bury all these things
I don't know if you can see the shadow
That you cast on the ground
But maybe I can see through the lonely face
Loose your feet and loose your waist
Anywhere you are, you know the freedom there
Is dragging you down

And you break me into lines
We can shake our bodies
And wreck our minds
I’m a bitter man, I know,
But listen, honey, you're no fun

I will never love like you
But you will probably hate like me
Oh lovelessly, and empty
Full of god, and god makes plenty.
You will go on searching
For someone to keep you killing
If you love me, won't you leave me?
'cause I want to settle down…


First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away.

First you
Fade into the background
Wouldn’t even call me
Had the nerve to leave me
Go ahead and love me
I’m a hungry man
Ever since you went away.


And oh, don't you wanna love?
And don't you wanna feel?
I remember, you were reckless, you were hungry
You were real, you were so uptight
Listen, I don't mind
I feel like I’m watching a car crash.

And oh, this is how it ends
You will watch your friends
Take a moment, take a nothing
Then they'll put it in again.
This is how we are
This is how we are
We are young and stupid
And raised by wolves

I will never live like you do
I will never love like you do

I will never live like you do
I, I will never love like you do

I will never live like you do
I will never love like you do

I will never live like you
I will never love like you

I will never live like you do
No, I will never love like you

I will never live like you
Say I, I will never love like you do. "

new perspective??

making a list of things I love.
because I think I need a new perspective of my life..
and because I wanted to :]

i love

God.
friends.
music.
lyrics.
dance.
sunflowers.
photography
smiling.
the color blue.
giraffes.
acoustic guitar.
silly songs.
raps by L to the A the the ura.
reading.
sprinting.
my cellular device[teheh].
the internet [ it should die...but I love it.]
the weather.
my family.
football games.
old movies.
Charleston, SC.
traveling.
trees.
wheat thins[my weakness. ahah].
peace/love/happiness. I love all three.
power rangers/teenage mutant ninja turtles.
cereal.
smilies :]
erasers.
crayola markers.
1955 Chevy Bel Aires[sp?].
Monopoly.
mechanical pencils.
gravity.
dreaming.
stars[ the ones in the solar system].
superheroes.
air conditioning/heating.
electricity.
getting advice.
feeling pretty.
blue jeans.
water.
being able to see and hear.
OHS.
hugs.
good days.
being nice.
my lack of common sense. ahah.
crab crackers. [ahaha yess that was for LAURA.].
inside jokes.
me.
you.

life.

now that Ive done that, Im going to bed.
i love you.
goodnight children.
[ps. what do you love?]

new music.

well a few new-er songs.

and I added the craziest song ever.

Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake.
I learned like the most awesome dance to it on Tuesday. It was great.

ahahah randomness rocks my soul.

anyways, Oakland is the shizzz.

loooooove it.

got to go
have fun being youuu.[ teehee]

love from yours truly.

NEO-SPORN

so I hear xanga is making a comeback.
im excited.
myspace is screwing up too much.

I havnt updated in for freaking ever...and im not proud :[

I got a new layout. I love the saying. it is just too cute!!!!

well nothing much has happened..school starts really soon. that sucks.I really really really do NOT want to go to school.

I have sooo many new songs to add to my playlist..but ill have to do it when im at my mom's house. im at my dads until Tuesday. blegh

I miss Charleston :[
its amazing.
im living there or near there when I grow up.

F-B FOLLY BEACH!!! ahahah laura..good times good times.

I dont know...I have a lack of wanting to write lately.i dont know why, but I wish I did. I miss writing unnaturally long updates.

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****NEWSFLASH***

im in a mafia.
NEO-SPORN is the name.
VOTE OR DIE.[ahaha]
im the hit girl / goddaughter. so watch your back.

teehee

love from yours truly :]